kebosanan!!!

haish...semua owg bz jek hari nie....sibuk meeting jek.......hahahhaa....ckp kat diri sendiri bleh? hahaha...tgh lapor neh...terbayang mcm2....lapor aper???? yg pasti n surenyer....kelaparan sesuatu yg tak dapat nak bayangkan kesedapan nya....hahha....dah request tuk tuh...tp entah dapat entah tidak...kepada yg memahami....boleh ke idak sayer dapat malam neh...uhuks....terbayang2 dah neh...camno..haish....ilang habis ngantuk neh....ilang sudah kebosanan....membayangkan kesedapan menikmatinya.....hahhaahhahahhah

Jar of Hearts

Jar of Hearts
i know i can’t take one more step towards you
cause all thats waiting is regret
don’t you know i’m not your ghost anymore
you lost the love i loved the most

i learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

i hear you’re asking all around
if i am anywhere to be found
but i have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms

ive learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back

who do you think you are?
running around leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
dont come back at all

"If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time"

"If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time"

How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

[1] - If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darlin' you, you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

[Repeat 1]

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone, whoa

[Repeat 1]

I'd never hurt you (If I could turn back)
Never do you wrong (If I could turn back)
And never leave your side (If I could turn back)
If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you
(If I could turn back)
Forever honest and true to you
(If I could turn back)
If you accept me back in your heart, I love you
(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)
That would be my will
(If I could turn back)
Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands
(If I could turn back the hands)

I'm going down, yes I am
(If I could turn back)
Down on my bended knee, yeah
(If I could turn back)
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me
(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)
If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall
(If I could turn back)
Then I'd come to realize how much I love you
Love you love you love you
(If I could turn back the hands)

Can u see?

Can you see what I feel

Can you grasp my pain

Looking into my sad eyes

Do you know what I'm going through

Can you feel my agony

Hear me cry

Can you see these wounds

When you look into my sad eyes

Do you understand this

Can you see my tears

Falling in the dark

Can you feel my empty heart

See the damage done

Can you tell I'm falling apart

When you look at my sad eyes

saat...layan...saat..ckp...saat....sms.....saat...bercakap!!!

banyak yg boleh tafsir dr saat itu...saat ini....semua lah...tp bila tiba saat.....?....kita boleh terdiam terpaku....sbb...waktu tu sampai...sakit ka....senang hati ka..runsing ka..di tentukan oleh "saat" itu.....skrg ...saat ini buat aku terdiam...terpaku dgn aper yg aku alami sendiri....terpulang pada empunya diri yg melalui tiap "saat" yg ada...pilih ajer ketika nie.....

patutlah....aku sedey.....

sedey sbb banyak sgt yg jadik...sedih bila vision ..or gerak hati aku neh...jadik betul....knp kita terasa? knp kita perlu sedey...yg pasti..bila terikat dgn hati n perasaan...semua tue kita akan rasa....aku cuba banyak kali dah...utk tepis rasa tuh..utk kekalkan perasaan yg indah ajer...tp yg duka ttp dtg....PERLUKAH.....bila hati kian terikat....jgn kan sesiapa boleh ganggu..bayangan pun cukuplah...bisa buat hati gundah....kekal tenang...nampak mudah...kekal senyum...payah....tp tuk kekalkan hati nie...tuhan lebih tahu....jauh dlm hati tue....bagaimana golak dlm dada tuh.....!!!! aku bukan sempurna mana....cuma pada dasarnya...hanya biasa saja....."nobody understand love"...thats its....kecuali bg yg sedang melalui saat tue...sedang bergelut memahami aper itu "love"....it's also very individual, filtered by our own lives and expectations. I don't understand love, and can't understand love, because it's a different thing for each of us."......sakit..happy....sayu..sedey...ceria...sayang...coz..semua tue yg buat kita nak kenal love....

sedey?

ada ape dgn sedey??? knp kita rasa sedey? knp bila sedey aku menangis? kenapa aku terasa tiap kali aku sedey? knp? knp aku down bila aku sedey?....tp yg pasti aku sedey..keadaan sentiasa berubah....mengikut angin putaran dlm hati nie....ape yg rasa....yg kita sedari...tak pasti akan sehaluan melalui akal fikiran....seakan hari2 yg dilalui...seolah hari terakhir...kita lalui.....salam terakhir....setiap yg terjadi dlm hidup...kdg2 tak terancang oleh kita....aku pentingkan rasa hati sendiri...sbb....kesedihan selama nie...masih berbaki di hati...huwaaaa...nak nangis jek...entahlah...masing2 punya rasa...punya cara menyisih rasa sedih yg kita alami.....

bored....weekend?

bored ke weekend aku neh? baru sabtu kan..ader lagi sehari tuk rest badan...minda..n hati...ehmmmm bersama kesayangan ehmmm....bowink gak la...tp hari nie aku habiskan seharian layan astro neh...bila on jek fb or twitter...aperlah yg menarik sgt....uhuks....baring...pun takleh nak terlelap....jijie a.k.a handsome....kitaorg jek kat umah neh..mcm2 peel dia dr mlm hingga pagi..dah tak reti nak tido ajaknyer...ehmm...hari nie time tuk jijie grooming....maknanya anak mummy nie kena lah mandi....hehehe....skrg jijie dah wangi tp mummy.......mau tau sendiri la kan....ahaks

Naper jijie camneh nie?? eieieiiei!!!!

haish..neh pic yg aku terima pagi2 aku sampai kat opis..uhuks housemate aku mms kan...haish...nie lah perangai jijie yg dah lama dia tak buat...ape jijie camneh nei? lepak kat atas ironboard...dlm banyak tempat kat dlm umah tue..yg mummy sedia kan tuk jijie tuh..naper pilih iroboard gak? sbb kain batik yg lapik tuh best? sbb ader meja tepi tuh..yg boleh jijie way cam tangga..or aper? cuba cite...cite...cite....

PertuKaran @ PeruBahan ? Perlu Ka tak Perlu?

haish...pening kepala aku neh? mcmana? perlu kah? klu takde angin kencang...takdenyer aku kisah pun aku keja kat mana..tp banyak sgt spekulasi yg bisa buat aku pikir demi masa depan....dlm erti kata lain semua nie sbb keja la..dr satu jabatan dlm kerajaan bertukar tuk jadik swasta...ehmmm....byk perubahan tuh yg berlaku dlm setiap langkah...nak stay or tukar ...boleh kasik aku pening kepala...bila tgk satu2 opismate neh..angkat kaki...gerun gak..cam serius ajer...bila BSM plak ckp itu...cakap ini...aku pun terus lakar surat pertukaran....yg lain letak tepi...haishhhh payah la...leh tak klu tak nak pikir lagi?

Sempena CNY.....

wah...lama jap rest dr post entry neh..bukan aper...waktu kelapangan yg aku ader..semua aku habiskan melayan "kesayangan"..uhuks....paham2 sudeh....banyak menda jadik lam bulan lepas dan jugak bulan neh...penat, letih semua ader..yg pastinya..mestilah ader happy...wah....(senyum sampai telinga)..hahhahaha....tp rasa kejap jek cuti neh...uhuks..xtvt yg paling aku tak suka time CNY neh..aku terpaksa buat sbb dah bertmbun sampai si 'kesayangan" aku pun dah malas nak ckp...leh ckp yek " nanti jijie basuhkan yek"...hahhaa...bakul2 baju aku dah melimpah ruah...sampaikan aku sendiri naik meluat nak masuk bilik sendiri...rasa nak beli baju baru jek pakai..takyah basuh baju..coz yg lain tuh mcm dah tak muat...sbb aku neh dah tukar saiz...isk3...bermulalah..sesi membasuh...tue pun terpaksa gak hold kejap sbb kena ambush oleh mak..makcik n pakcik serta sepupu sepapat....gara2 CNY aku tak balik kg...boleh ke camtu? main sergah umah..adoi...lari gelimpang ngan "kesayangan" ..simpan aper yg patut..supaya tetamu dtg..tak bebel...(yeke tak?) adoi..kencang gak la jantung neh..walaupun tiada aper yg nak sorok...hahhahaha...aperpun...aku happy..sampai sambung cuti on Monday...kahkah...jdk drebar jap..pastu..sesi lipat baju bermula....bibik2 yg membantu..love u all....thanks yer..kah3...takde gambar yg boleh aku post kat sini sbb mmg tak sempat @ klu ader pun..korang sama naik nak pengsan sbb baju yg terlampau banyak...kihkihkih...next entry aku letak pic yek..at least tak la asyik baca jek tulisan aku neh..sambil layan mata kuyu tuh...hhaha...

Day at Opis!!

huuhuhu..dah masuk bulan 2...kihkih...cepatkan....hehheheh...entry blog aku neh terhenti jap la kan...sbb banyak sgt benda yg aku nak handle..sampaikan baju kat umah pun dah jadik gunung dlm bilik tuh...siap ader ckp "klu jijie leh tolong basuh, mesti menangis la mami" uhuk...sampai camtu skalik...bukan malas..cuma aku tak sempat ajek..weekend yg aku plan nak settlekan baju2 kat umah tuh...terpaksa la pulak aku balik kg dlm keaadaan terdesak..penat tau...ingat dekat ker....tp tue lah kan..family menginginkan aku ader bersama..so...pulanglah ke pangkuan keluarga jap...terpaksa harapkan housemate jaga jijie a.k.a handsome....janji jijie ader owg tenggokkan....tgk tajuk entry nak citer psl opis...tp dah rentetan tuh wat aku jadik kemalasan kat opis neh..huhuu letey...ngantu...punca semua tu aku dok layan fb dr wat keja opis...tak byk pun baucer yg nak bayar...just aku neh rasa cam dok saja ajer..heheheheh....pastu layan fb..ym kekawan bila boring...lansung lupa nak bukak blog neh..klu tak..dah baper by entry aku dah post kan?...huhuhu tp coz mood cuti pun dah terjah2 neh..lagi lemak aku naik tepu..uhuks yea.....esok last daykeja..pastu cuti kan....bestnyer cuti lelama...leh dok umah...bangun tido lewat...tp boleh ker jijie biar aku bangun lambat...haishhhhh!!!!!!! so enjoy CNY neh...dgn happy...da...